Decision

So I have been thinking a lot lately...lots of time to think when you have trouble falling asleep. Well if I want these tests done to see if theres something wrong with us as to why I have had two miscarriages then we have to wait two months to TTC because I cant be pregnant when they do these tests. I was completely fine with this at first because last week of course I was such an emotional wreck from losing the baby.
WELL now I am thinking more about just letting whatever happen happen...not using protection when we start having sex again...1. because condoms SUCK. and 2. I have always heard that after a miscarriage, you are more fertile.
The two doctors that I have seen already have both said that theres probably nothing wrong and that when they run these tests they probably wont find anything wrong..that its just bad luck. Well what if we wait to get these tests done and the doctors are right..that its just bad luck and I am wasting this fertility to get tests done for nothing...for bad luck. THEN what if we start trying after these just bad luck nothing comes up tests are done and it takes a long time to get pregnant? UGH. Im just so frustrated because I cant make up my mind...because what if there is something wrong and its fixable?
Lucas says to just do what I want that it doesnt matter what he wants..but I think he wants to wait and get these tests done...but hes such a pushover (sorry hun but you are) that he wont voice his opinion more. He says that its my uterus and baby and blah blah blah...but its OUR baby not MY baby. Idk. My mom sees it both ways and my dad didnt really have an opinion..at least not one that he voiced to me.

I am just so stuck because I really want a baby and Im really leaning more towards just taking a chance and letting whatever happen happen. Then if LORD FORBID THIS HAPPENS if it happens again..another miscarriage then definitely get all these tests done. Idk.
Opinions are welcome please.
I love you all very much.

Prayers needed as well to help us stay strong through this emotional rollercoaster.