I honestly don't know what I would do without Lucas. He is truly and honestly my "rock"..I have always heard that in the past..."he/she is my rock" and I never really understood it until now. He holds me together when I can't hold myself together. We have been together for about two and half years and married for a year & a half. My love for him grows everyday...I can honestly say I have never felt this strongly for someone. Yes I have been in love in the past...but not like this..not this deeply and unconditionally. There are times where he drives me crazy and there are times when he pisses me off more than anything...but at the end of the day...there is nobody I would rather be with...nobody I would rather fall asleep next to and wake up next to....I would rather get in a thousand fights with him than live a single day without him.
Especially with what we are going through right now with the loss of our second baby...he has truly been there for me...even if its just to hold me while I cry or just listen to my "its not fair" speech. Yes I have my mother here to help me through this and she has been AWESOME and I don't know what I would do without her. Especially since Lucas can't be here all day everyday with me. But there are times where I just want to snuggle up with my husband and cry or just be held.
When we got married there were certain people that doubted our love...infact there were even bets placed on how long our marriage would last...they claim it was just a joke..but I doubt it. I wonder how many of you losers...lonely SINGLE losers have lost your bets now? Don't doubt love unless you have actually felt it...REAL true..you can't spend your life without them..love. I have even been called a "bad wife" by some of these so called friends of his. If moving across the country from all my friends & family makes me a bad wife...then damn I must be with worst wife in the world. If dropping out of college to marry the love of my life makes me a bad wife...then wow..I guess I am. If sitting in the ER and waiting rooms for hours..and when I say hours I mean like THREE hours or more..sometimes up to SIX...while he is in surgery or in serious pain with the whole wrist thing..makes me a bad wife..again Im just the worst there is. I might not keep my house spotless...I might not have a job to help support us...but I do my best...and I love him with my entire heart..more than my own life...so before you go calling me a bad wife..maybe you should look at your friendship...how often can you say you have called him to see how HE is doing..not to talk about yourself...but to see how HE is? Because honestly...I can only think of ONE person who actually did this when we were going through our hard time...he called as soon as he found out...and yes I have even fought with this person...but I still love him like a brother...and I can honestly say he is TRULY an amazing best friend for my husband to have. Idk I guess I just get frustrated with a lot of his so called friends...but there are a few good ones that I am glad are in his life. No names are going to be mentioned...you know who you are..and if you really have to question it...then send me a message...but Im sure you know it if you hang out with us when we are home...or you still talk.
Anyways..I just wanted to post a blog on how much I love my amazing husband and how I wouldn't be able to survive without him. Not just for the people who doubt us..but just because I felt like it. Maybe its to help remind him how much I really do love him...although I try to make sure to remind him everyday anyways. :P
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