A ticker thing to watch our baby grow :]
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Baby news
So I went to the doctor FINALLY today to confirm the pregnancy. ITS CONFIRMED :]
Approximately 6 weeks and 3 days (for those that want to help count that means every Saturday is a new week) :] Estimated due date is February 22nd, 2011.
Of course its too soon to know if its a boy or girl yet...but we are hoping for a boy...I have a big brother and I want my little girl(s) to have a big brother. :] But there is a GSE curse that they only have girls...I am happy either way though..boy or girl...as long as its healthy. :]
We are leaving tomorrow for Texas...going for TWO weeks...I can't wait to see everyone :]
Approximately 6 weeks and 3 days (for those that want to help count that means every Saturday is a new week) :] Estimated due date is February 22nd, 2011.
Of course its too soon to know if its a boy or girl yet...but we are hoping for a boy...I have a big brother and I want my little girl(s) to have a big brother. :] But there is a GSE curse that they only have girls...I am happy either way though..boy or girl...as long as its healthy. :]
We are leaving tomorrow for Texas...going for TWO weeks...I can't wait to see everyone :]
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Hair
So I made myself a little deal that if im pregnant that I would cut my hair...because I was debating on cutting my hair. AND my mom said that if I wait until I go home that she would pay for it. :] So heres the hairstyle that I am thinking of doing...
I really really really like it! :] It is just way too hot for my long hair. Im pretty excited about getting it cut. :]
Friday, June 18, 2010
100% sure
So I took a second test this morning and it said PREGNANT :D I got one of those fance smancy digital kinds. lol. Lucas wasnt happy about that..he said they all work the same. Oh well...too late now :]
Still waiting to go to the doctor on the 29th. Today and tomorrow I have to clean clean clean and get ready for the party tomorrow. Lucas is turning 21 on Sunday :] and its his first Fathers Day...I think maybe I will make him a card (he doesnt really care about that kind of stuff...but I think it would be CUTE) :]]
The mood swings haven't been too bad yet...but I definitely have had some. Poor Lucas. :[ lol.
Still waiting to go to the doctor on the 29th. Today and tomorrow I have to clean clean clean and get ready for the party tomorrow. Lucas is turning 21 on Sunday :] and its his first Fathers Day...I think maybe I will make him a card (he doesnt really care about that kind of stuff...but I think it would be CUTE) :]]
The mood swings haven't been too bad yet...but I definitely have had some. Poor Lucas. :[ lol.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Scare
WARNING DETAILS!!!
So the pregnancy is going well so far :] I am so freaking ecstatic...other than the mood swings nothing can bring me down :P
Oh so I had a scare the other day though...I started bawling I was so scared (sorry Nicolette) I was at Chick-Fil-A with Nicolette and Makayla..and I had to go potty...and when I went to wipe there was blood...enough to fill the tissue completely red....but there wasnt any in my undies...but still after last years miscarriage I got so scared. My stomach dropped and as I texted Lucas to tell him how scared I was I started bawling. I overexagerated to Nicolette on how much blood there was...because to me it looked like a lot jsut because I got scared and it was all over the toilet paper. So I bought some pads and another pregnancy test (to make sure it wasnt a false positive) although that was yesterday and I still havent taken the test. Well by the time I got home and was changing clothes (two hours-ish) the bleeding stopped. Sooo now I am spotting. I am still probably going to take the other test though just for the sake of it...its a clear blue (the one that says pregnant or not pregnant) But if Im not pregnant that would be CRAZY with all the symptoms I am having.
I cant wait to go to the Doctor on the 29th though....just because last pregnancy I didnt even get to make it to my first appointment (I had the miscarriage the day I was supposed to go in) :[
Keep praying that this baby makes it all the way and lives a full, happy, and healthy life. Please please please & thank you :] Right now we can use all the prayers we can get.
I love you all. Thanks for everyones well wishes and tips. :]
So the pregnancy is going well so far :] I am so freaking ecstatic...other than the mood swings nothing can bring me down :P
Oh so I had a scare the other day though...I started bawling I was so scared (sorry Nicolette) I was at Chick-Fil-A with Nicolette and Makayla..and I had to go potty...and when I went to wipe there was blood...enough to fill the tissue completely red....but there wasnt any in my undies...but still after last years miscarriage I got so scared. My stomach dropped and as I texted Lucas to tell him how scared I was I started bawling. I overexagerated to Nicolette on how much blood there was...because to me it looked like a lot jsut because I got scared and it was all over the toilet paper. So I bought some pads and another pregnancy test (to make sure it wasnt a false positive) although that was yesterday and I still havent taken the test. Well by the time I got home and was changing clothes (two hours-ish) the bleeding stopped. Sooo now I am spotting. I am still probably going to take the other test though just for the sake of it...its a clear blue (the one that says pregnant or not pregnant) But if Im not pregnant that would be CRAZY with all the symptoms I am having.
I cant wait to go to the Doctor on the 29th though....just because last pregnancy I didnt even get to make it to my first appointment (I had the miscarriage the day I was supposed to go in) :[
Keep praying that this baby makes it all the way and lives a full, happy, and healthy life. Please please please & thank you :] Right now we can use all the prayers we can get.
I love you all. Thanks for everyones well wishes and tips. :]
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
FINALLY
So I took a pregnancy test this morning and there were TWO lines :D I am FINALLY pregnant. I dont know how far along I am or anything like that because I JUST found out this morning silly people. The doctor won't see me until the 29th because technically my period isn't late yet according to their calendars of REGULAR periods, but my period is IRREGULAR and starts three days earlier every month. Oh well. I have been taking prenatals for the last month & a half (leftover from the miscarriage that I never got a chance to take)
Now I at least know I am not having symptoms for nothing because that was annoying. :] Now this nausea is a GOOD thing because I have a little miracle growing inside me :]]
Oh and this morning while I was waiting for the overwhelming excitement to go away so I could go back to sleep..I decided I am not doing ANYTHING until I know the sex of the baby at least...I do not want to jinx us at all.
I do need prayers that this baby makes it all the way. I really dont want another miscarriage and I want the baby to live a full and healthy life.
I am extremely excited about this though as many of you know all the frustrations with trying. :]
Now I at least know I am not having symptoms for nothing because that was annoying. :] Now this nausea is a GOOD thing because I have a little miracle growing inside me :]]
Oh and this morning while I was waiting for the overwhelming excitement to go away so I could go back to sleep..I decided I am not doing ANYTHING until I know the sex of the baby at least...I do not want to jinx us at all.
I do need prayers that this baby makes it all the way. I really dont want another miscarriage and I want the baby to live a full and healthy life.
I am extremely excited about this though as many of you know all the frustrations with trying. :]
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Deleted last post
I had someone (a good friend) tell me I should delete my last post because it might come back and bite me in the butt...I dont really know why...but I figured I would take the advice anyways just incase :] Better safe than sorry.
I am still frustrated that Lucas doesnt help me around the house & I am hoping that our fight last night was a slap in face of some reality. But who knows...only the future will tell.
We have been fighting a lot lately...IDK why..but its whatever. We arent getting divorced over it..its just petty little nothing fights.
I am still frustrated that Lucas doesnt help me around the house & I am hoping that our fight last night was a slap in face of some reality. But who knows...only the future will tell.
We have been fighting a lot lately...IDK why..but its whatever. We arent getting divorced over it..its just petty little nothing fights.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
Symptoms :/
WARNING DETAILS!
Okay lets start with the miscarriage. For those of you who dont know...I was pregnant last year (May 2009) for five weeks..and my baby did not survive...it died on or around June 1st. We were NOT trying to get pregnant at the time...I was off of birth control for ONE week and got pregnant...the Doctors didnt know why I miscarried...their only guess was that the sack didnt attach to the uterus correctly. My guess is because of not being off birth control for very long. Anyways...we werent ready for kids anyways because financially we just weren't ready and we wanted to enjoy our marriage a little more before having a lil one running around. After that first pregnancy I decided more than anything that I wanted to be a mother. Lucas decided he wanted to wait awhile. Through the months & months of waiting I had been bothering him that I wanted a baby & that I wanted to start trying.
Finally when our name came up on the housing list he said that we could start trying as soon as we moved into our new house since we would have a bedroom for the baby. So around January 20th we started trying. It has been very difficult these months of trying as I psych myself out thinking I am pregnant each month because I get the symptoms A LOT.
The main problem was that I had Chronic Nausea...I had been nauseous since August/September time. I was throwing up, dry heaving, couldnt get out of bed nauseous. I lost my job because I was calling out sick so much. Well FINALLY in March/April I found out that I have H Pylori (a bacteria that causes ulcers and stomach cancer) so they put me on some anti-biotics to get rid of it. Tomorrow I go back to the GI Specialist to find out if the H Pylori is completely gone.
Anyways...now I am psyching myself out again thinking I am pregnant...I have been nauseous like crazy...especially this morning as six AM. EXCUSE the details...constipated, soreness around nipples, cramping when my period isnt even near, sharp pains near my rib cages, headaches, mood swings like crazy, etc. The MAIN thing that has me going though is that last night I had a dream that I peed on that stupid little pregnancy test and it was positive..the last time I had that dream I was pregnant. I know I am probably just psyching myself out...but I cant help it...I want a baby more than anything. It doesnt help my poor husband that I have been a crazy b*tch or an emotional wreck :[ Darling if you read this im sorry you have to put up with me :[ and I love you for doing so <3
I am surrounded by babies & pregnant women...its INSANE. Everyone I know is either pregnant or has a cute little bundle of joy. Well WHERE IS MINE?!?!? I can't help but get frustrated. Its been almost six months since we have been trying.
THEN to top it off..tonight my mind has to play the what if game...What if im not pregnant? What if I cant get pregnant? What if I am pregnant and I have another miscarriage? UGH seriously? WHY does my mind have to pull these questions on me NOW?
Well again sorry for the details but last month my period started on the 15th BUT it was like 12 days long & my period has been earlier & earlier every month. I go to the Doctor Thursday for my yearly papsmere (sp?) YUCK...and maybe I can get her to do a test (it might be too soon though)
If any of you readers pray...please pray that I am pregnant & have a healthy pregnancy & my baby lives to see the light of day.
I love you all very much. Thank you for all your support.
SORRY ABOUT DETAILS
Okay lets start with the miscarriage. For those of you who dont know...I was pregnant last year (May 2009) for five weeks..and my baby did not survive...it died on or around June 1st. We were NOT trying to get pregnant at the time...I was off of birth control for ONE week and got pregnant...the Doctors didnt know why I miscarried...their only guess was that the sack didnt attach to the uterus correctly. My guess is because of not being off birth control for very long. Anyways...we werent ready for kids anyways because financially we just weren't ready and we wanted to enjoy our marriage a little more before having a lil one running around. After that first pregnancy I decided more than anything that I wanted to be a mother. Lucas decided he wanted to wait awhile. Through the months & months of waiting I had been bothering him that I wanted a baby & that I wanted to start trying.
Finally when our name came up on the housing list he said that we could start trying as soon as we moved into our new house since we would have a bedroom for the baby. So around January 20th we started trying. It has been very difficult these months of trying as I psych myself out thinking I am pregnant each month because I get the symptoms A LOT.
The main problem was that I had Chronic Nausea...I had been nauseous since August/September time. I was throwing up, dry heaving, couldnt get out of bed nauseous. I lost my job because I was calling out sick so much. Well FINALLY in March/April I found out that I have H Pylori (a bacteria that causes ulcers and stomach cancer) so they put me on some anti-biotics to get rid of it. Tomorrow I go back to the GI Specialist to find out if the H Pylori is completely gone.
Anyways...now I am psyching myself out again thinking I am pregnant...I have been nauseous like crazy...especially this morning as six AM. EXCUSE the details...constipated, soreness around nipples, cramping when my period isnt even near, sharp pains near my rib cages, headaches, mood swings like crazy, etc. The MAIN thing that has me going though is that last night I had a dream that I peed on that stupid little pregnancy test and it was positive..the last time I had that dream I was pregnant. I know I am probably just psyching myself out...but I cant help it...I want a baby more than anything. It doesnt help my poor husband that I have been a crazy b*tch or an emotional wreck :[ Darling if you read this im sorry you have to put up with me :[ and I love you for doing so <3
I am surrounded by babies & pregnant women...its INSANE. Everyone I know is either pregnant or has a cute little bundle of joy. Well WHERE IS MINE?!?!? I can't help but get frustrated. Its been almost six months since we have been trying.
THEN to top it off..tonight my mind has to play the what if game...What if im not pregnant? What if I cant get pregnant? What if I am pregnant and I have another miscarriage? UGH seriously? WHY does my mind have to pull these questions on me NOW?
Well again sorry for the details but last month my period started on the 15th BUT it was like 12 days long & my period has been earlier & earlier every month. I go to the Doctor Thursday for my yearly papsmere (sp?) YUCK...and maybe I can get her to do a test (it might be too soon though)
If any of you readers pray...please pray that I am pregnant & have a healthy pregnancy & my baby lives to see the light of day.
I love you all very much. Thank you for all your support.
SORRY ABOUT DETAILS
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