Well as most of you have read on facebook...I am pregnant..again. I have known for about a month now and it has been really hard not telling people...I have only told a very select few..mainly family. The reason why I did this was because last time when I miscarried...I had made it public I was pregnant early..and I also made it public that I had miscarried but not everyone saw the miscarriage announcement for some reason...and getting questions over & over again about "how is the pregnancy?" or "how far along are you now?" It gets really hard and heartbreaking. I still probably should have waited since I will only be eight weeks tomorrow...but I had an ultrasound today and I have never made it to an ultrasound before. The baby definitely had a heartbeat measuring at 153 beats per minute. A lot of people have predicted that its going to be girl with such a high heartbeat. Lucas of course is dissapointed and in denial by all these rumors because he wants a boy. I honestly just want a healthy baby...boy or girl. We are just happy this lil peanut has a heartbeat. But just because it has a heartbeat now...doesn't mean we are in the clear....we will still be needing a lot of prayer to help us through this.
Names....I know most of you remember names we had picked out from before...but they have changed..slightly. If its a boy it will be Justin Thomas (instead of Jacob)..we finally found a J name we could agree on...and if its a girl it will still be Isabella Nicole.
As most of you know from my previous blog...I will be moving back home (we leave here December 20th and should get there sometime December 21st in the evening). Lucas will most likely not be here for the delivery as the baby is estimated due July 21st and he isn't due back until sometime in August. Yes it will be hard..but this isn't going to be our only baby and my family will be there to help me through it. Also I am going to MAYBE see about having it recorded for him to watch when he gets home.
Again...we still need all the prayers we can get. A little prayer can go a long way. I love you all.
